New Beginings

So, I have decided to start a blog, to help follow my progress in...well life. I have always been a journal person, but in the past few years I have stopped writing... and I have noticed, I carry a little more stress from it. I love to write and get my emotions out on paper. I find it helps me work through issues that seem big at the time, but really are not. I am hopping this will keep me more level headed.

So on February 10, 2010 I decided to change the way I have been living my life. I have been very upset with my weight... and have struggled with it all my life. I know I sound like all the other "I'm fat girls" out there, but I'm not. I started this at 240.0 pounds! That is out of control! I feel it everyday, when I walk, when I run, when I go up stairs. I sweet like there is no tomorrow, even if I am just walking.

So why do I want to shed the extra pounds? I have a passion for life... and I want to live it! I want to feel healthy and happy living it. Now I am not saying you cant live life at 240lbs...you can. I play soccer 3-4 a week, I walk my dogs every day, I love going to the beach. However, I think I am more active and have more drive when I am at a more healthy weight.

Now 240lb's yes that is very heavy. But I have always lead an active life... so if you looked at me, you would not think I weighed that much. I have a lot of muscle mass and even at this elevated weight, you can see muscle. I think that gives me a good head start.

So last week I changed my diet, I started the Atkins 2 week induction.... Now I know what you are thinking...that is so bad for you, that is so un-healthy.... Well people. #1 being Obese ( as I am classified) is just as if not more un-healthy... So Suck it! #2 If you do it right and eat lean proteins your good to go.

Now, in the past Atkins has always worked and kick started my weight lose fast.... not so much this time.

I currently weigh 233.5, that is a weight loss of 6.5 pounds. Which is great! but for the induction diet I feel like it is not very much for the sacrifices I have made... and its not even the sweets that I miss, I can go with out sweats for a very long time. Its the starches, like potato's and toast.
I have decided to change directions and start counting points. Either way, I have changed my diet and I am vamping up my exercise.

Today I started P90X... I am doing the Lean Course... That definitely kicked my ass! I did what I could do and that is all they ask... I know that as time goes on I will be able to do even more. I am really excited about this program, and what I can accomplish with it.

At this time in my life it is key for me to keep in mind that this is on me! I can't relay on others to keep me going, support me, or join me in my quest for a healthier lifestyle. My goal weight right now is 190lb. But my current and smaller goal is to get out of the "30's" and in to the "20's". that is just 3.5 pounds away. And I have not been there in over a year.

I am looking forward to this journey I am heading on, and I really feel that I am going to succeed.