Set Backs

So I am at my parents house right now, and not really have I experienced a physical set back but a mental one...

I have always been over weight. And I have always been seen that way. And I have always had doctors tell me I need to do something different, even when I was in high school and I was eating right and playing soccer 7 days a week. Once and most recently, I had a doctor and her assistant speak to me. Now under normal circumstances I would have taken it with a grain of salt, as always... But this time I had just had my physical finished, (very personal) and I was sitting on the table in a gown... with my backside exposed, and consistently, I felt unconformable, judged, horrified... It was the worst feeling that I have ever had in my life!

However this is not the reason for my post today. This morning, we are all sitting in the living room and my sister brought up high blood pressure. In the past I have had high blood presure, but the last time I saw the doctor they told me I had really good blood pressure. So my sister, being a nurse desides she is going to take my blood pressure... 140/60... Then she proceeds to look at me and tell me that I need to really work on that number that its supper high and that I need to concentrate on a diet...

Usually, I am on guard around her, for more reasons then she is a nurse and enjoys lecturing me on everything I do... But I have a lot of stressful things in front of me right now, and I wasn't thinking about putting up my shield. But why should I have too? My life and the way I live it is non of her business. She is just like our mom, who thinks she knows something of everything.... well Sis, you have no idea what my life is like. Just because I am different doesn't mean I am wrong. She has always doubted me, always. Never thinking I can manage money, live on my own... have good judge of character. And now with my job situation, instead of saying Erin, you are 25 and starting you own business, I'm proud of you... she instead tells me that I am making a mistake and that I should go get a new job.... B! I didn't go to school for 5 years to pour somebody a cup of coffee. My job field is a little more uncertain then something so cut and dry as Nursing.

Now I am upset and cant get it to go away. Even though my sister left a 1/2 hour ago.

Frustrating.